Last Wednesday morning I woke up with a migraine/sinus headache. If you have not experienced a headache like that, it is a kind of pain that grips your entire body. With this pain, your eyes are sensitive to light, stomach broils with upset, your mind cannot think straight. Most you can do, is get up and take a tylenol to try and help alleviate it.Usually, the pain wakes me about 4:00 or 5:00 A.M, so I can wait before I start my day for a few hours, anyway. I wait for the pain to recede and I pray. Often, it helps to pray for others while I'm lying there. Many times, God will speak to me in scriptures or show me something in a vision or dream. Last Wednesday, I laid my hand on the back of my neck and asked God to lift the pain. My neck was injured during a car accident some thirty years ago when I foolishly left my seat belt off. Right before the incident, I cranked up the radio with "the boss" singing Rosalita . The lyrics blasted, I danced , and pulled onto the highway on ramp and assumed the car in front of me was going to move. My third mistake was flooring it when the traffic cleared only to back end the car in front of me. Yup. I was young and dumb. Because I did not wear my safety belt, the impact caused my head to shatter the windshield.The doctor who spoke to me that day was kind, he said," accidents happen, don't hang onto the self recriminations that usually follow an accident like that". My co-workers took to calling me "rock" head after that because I never did get an initial headache. Thankfully, the occupants in the car in front of me were not injured, either. Apparently. However, on visiting many, many experts for pain in the following years, I was told that I might "stroke out" in my thirties. I had one chiropractor put me on a (now that I look back at it) archaic system of placing a five pound ball on the end of a strap that was placed on the top of my head. I had to sit with my aching neck backwards over the back of a chair to try and re-create "the curve" that is part of a healthy spine. Now that's desperation! In the meantime, I suffered from several people back ending me. The last accident, I would say, happened just five years ago. A young man, around the age I was when I had my first car accident, briefly looked away from traffic towards a friend's house and rammed right into the back of my car which was stopped in traffic. Ouch. I spent the time after that accident, telling the young man who hit me that I was okay. My car was crumpled up like a sardine can. Then, I reassured his mother when she arrived that he would be fine! Then, when I called a friend to ask her to contact my teacher that I would be late for a class we both were in, she refused and told me basically, that the accident was my fault. According to her, she was praying for me at that time that God would not judge me and have me in an accident. Unbeknownst to her, I actually had just read in the word of God that morning that I was "covered" by the armor of God and nothing could touch me. This is not to say that I was not liable for causing some of my pain. I was tempted to feel that I deserved to live with it. But, God does not work that way. Once we turn away from wrongdoing, He promises to be there to forget all about our past faults and trespasses and to continue to cleanse us and give us the power from repeating it. (1John 1:9) Wednesday night, I attended a miracles and healing conference in Rutherford New Jersey with some friends. My headache was long gone, so when the speaker, Joan Hunter called for people to raise their hands if they did not have a C curve in their necks, I did not raise my hand. However, after she explained that the "c" curve is the natural curve in the base of our necks to the top of our skull, I remembered that mine was flat. And, this was the source of my morning headaches. So, when the conference was finished, and one of the staff called out, "is there anyone who wants prayer?" I walked over to her. I told her that I did not have a natural curve to my neck. In fact, it was straight and actually off to the side if you look closely. She placed both hands behind my neck looked directly in my eyes, and asked God to curse the trauma that had entered my life through the accident and for Him to restore the natural curve to my neck. I felt a warmth in my neck. I put my hands behind my neck and felt a curve in my neck and a looseness that has not been there since my late teens.Thursday morning, I woke up pain free even though there was a cloud cover in the sky. On cloudy mornings, I ALWAYS wake up with a headache. Friday morning, I woke up pain free again.
Why has God healed me from cancer, a damaged neck, hip injuries? I don't know. I want to say, "because He is GOOD! He is a healer! He is alive today!"And, He is. He has promised to do more miracles through us then even Jesus did. However, when another person stands next to me with much more severe trauma and does not receive healing, that breaks my heart.
It upsets me to see people suffer. Who wants to suffer with pain, mental anguish, emotional upset? It upsets me even more when others might think that they are not special enough, spiritual enough, good enough to be healed. Truth of the matter is that Jesus healed Mary Magdalene and saved her when she was involved with multiple men. The demoniac was not a church going, bible carrying, righteous man. I doubt it. He was too busy throwing himself into fires and living in the caves as an outcast from the city. My point is, no one deserves a touch from God. Yet, God wants to manifest himself to all. 2 Peter 3:9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
When we are going through a test, it seems that all of hell has opened up against us. For some of us, that is true. For others, we simply need to have our minds transformed by the truth of the word of God. Part of the teaching of the healing conference is about maintaining the healing we receive. Do I believe God is good and able to bring me healing? Do I believe that He is for me, and loves me?Do I believe that He actually did heal me, if the pain comes back? We can receive a touch from God, but, we must also continue to walk it out. It's not always an easy thing to do. We walk by faith, not by sight.
Scripture says it best ~
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4 Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. 5 But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
Many godly people wake up with a battle on their hands every day. They battle disease, misunderstanding, mental disorders, feeling of abandonment, rejection, condemnation, oppression, and even self righteousness. Whatever we are feeling, whatever we are experiencing, the truth of the matter is that God loves us. He heals us. He is sovereign and He is good. He does not like to see us suffer. In fact, He hates all sin. This is why He sent his son to die on the cross , to obliterate all sin from the earth.
Whatever you are going through today, may you know the love of the Father who adores you and has a wonderful plan for your life! May we continue to believe He is for us, and not against us no matter the pressure or the suffering! May you receive the miracle of his healing touch today.