Anywhere I can travel to a new place is apt to stir up creativity. Yet, I am embarking on a trip to Florida ...this time on pins and needles. Given the chance to work one on one with other much more experienced writers, I'm in a gridlock.
What happens if I go and work on my novel and it fails? What if it is ridiculed by the reading community? What if this baby turns out to be an ugly reminder of all that is wrong in this world? The Giver of dreams calls to me, but, my soul is clinging to the familiar not the unknown.
Insecurities chase my dreams, while new opportunities propel me forward.
My daughters are grown and hubby is backing me all the way. They can and will be fine. So why is a mountain of guilt threatening to undo my resolve?
Whispers of "It's not all about me". "It's a sin to have too much (worldly goods, expensive travel, nice clothes, etc.)" show up in the middle of the night. WHY are you so blessed? Indeed. Why?
Even while I am completely free to choose this life, my thoughts want to take me down. Take me from the place I've prayed for, hoped for, and worked for. It's time. Yet, I am afraid.
A writer's life ain't for the faint of heart. There are any number of reasons that I can choose to just quit. And, believe me, a huge part of me wants to.
Many are encouraging. Friends who value the call are praying. My family is all in.
So why not? With God, all things are possible. I truly believe that. Why not me? I've been waiting for this opportunity all my life.
Better yet. Why not you? What have you been waiting to do because it's not the right time? Or, you think it's 'someone else's' gift? Or, you just can't believe God would be calling you to something you have always wanted to do?
Me~ All systems are go and I'm leaving on a jet plane. Going to take this novel to the next level, spend time with other writers, have fun on the beach and well who knows...maybe even take a dip in the ocean.
Next week~ pics from the trip! :-D
There's no time like the present to follow your dreams....Can't wait to see the next adventure He has you on!
1 Peter 4:7-11The Message (MSG)
7-11 Everything in the world is about to be wrapped up, so take nothing for granted. Stay wide-awake in prayer. Most of all, love each other as if your life depended on it. Love makes up for practically anything. Be quick to give a meal to the hungry, a bed to the homeless—cheerfully. Be generous with the different things God gave you, passing them around so all get in on it: if words, let it be God’s words; if help, let it be God’s hearty help. That way, God’s bright presence will be evident in everything through Jesus, and he’ll get all the credit as the One mighty in everything—encores to the end of time. Oh, yes!