Life's difficulties with my family's ongoing health problems, the sudden death of our dog, and other transitions have left me fried. In fact, we have faced so many complications that there has been little time to work on my own goals. Namely, my novel and it has all made me feel very frustrated. Why? Because ultimately, I'm impatient. And, I want the book done and published now.
It's been very humbling to have all my plans 'fail.' Which in turn reminds me of all my other "failures" in the past. Not only have my personal goals not been met, but the problems I have no control over seem to increase in volume and in nature. For instance, the medicine is not working for one of my daughters' health issues. As I talked to the nurse today she said, "it takes time for her body to get used to the new adjustment." Sounds familiar.
As a result of the changes in our schedule, I am doing "less" for others. Which has all forced me to take a good look at my source of significance. Am I worth less now that I don't "do" or produce as much as I was before? Or is it possible that God really has me in the center of His will in spite of all the craziness?
After some time set aside to read the bible and pray, I'm left assured that I am in the center of His will for me. As hard as it is to see, He can still use me when my work appears to be producing nothing. My prayer is that God ,while I see nothing happening, is producing fruit, character and patience in me.
If I had one thing to impart to those who are struggling it's this~ he can carry you through your worst fears unscathed in your spirit when you rely solely on Him. It's not like having a bad hair day. It's about those "am I going to survive?" "How do I get myself out of bed?" kind of days. And we all have them, don't we?
Recently, during one of our talks I asked Him, "Lord, why is life so hard?" He said, "when you reach down to help another out of the fire, then you get burnt."
John 16:33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
- He is making you stronger.
- He is bringing your family closer together. Even if it doesn't look that way, He will bring you through.
- He will never leave you.
- He is pleased with you.
- He is working on your behalf behind the scenes and you haven't missed Him one single moment.
- It's not your fault.
- It's okay to be good to yourself.
- Don't expect too much from yourself during the most difficult days.
- Treat yourself to whatever helps you through the pain. A phone call to a friend. A funny show in the middle of your day. An ice cream cone.
- Know that this too will pass.
Lord will you ~
Grant me a straight path when my way is not clear.
Grant me the wisdom to know what needs I can take on and what I need to cast on to You.
Grant me the grace to carry through on my responsibilities.
Grant me the discernment to see through flattery and respond with sincere encouragement.
Grant me the patience to deal with insensitivity and lack of judgment in these crazy times.
Grant me the desire to bless my enemies.
Grant me the words to speak on your behalf.
Grant me your reflection that other's might see you in me.
Grant me the fruit of joy to strengthen my frame.
Grant me the revelation to know that brighter days are ahead. And, the eyes to see your blessings throughout this trial.
Grant me the wings for my heart to soar in freedom with you.
Grant me Father, everything that I need to live for you today.
In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.